Buckling Down

The first few weeks of my liquid protein diet were tough.  I did not do well.  I tried to, but I was just so hungry all the time that I would sneak things here and there.  I saw the nutritionist a couple weeks ago, and since then I have really buckled down and am sticking to the guidelines.  I'm still hungry, but I guess that's just something I'm going to have to deal with.  The first couple weeks, I lost about 14 pounds and then I stalled when I didn't eat so well.  Now that I'm back on track, I have lost 20 lbs.  My clothes are much looser, and I'm able to fit into clothes I haven't wore in awhile.  I think I've went down one pant size, from 28 to 26.  I had some t-shirts that were really tight, but they are now loose.  I'm exactly one month a way from my surgery.  My surgeon didn't give me a set amount to lose, but I was hoping I could lose 30 lbs.  After the stall, I wasn't sure if I'd make it, but it's starting to look more like a reality. 

I went to the CPAP Clinic the other day, and I had really been dreading it.  It turns out, there was no reason at all to dread it.  I didn't get a slap on the wrist for noncompliance like I thought I would.  I wasn't noncompliant by choice, I simply could not tolerate the high pressure they had set for me.  She tried several different pressures and end up decreasing it from 24/20 to 16/12.  It is so much better.  I felt very validated with my concerns, she saw that there were leaks no matter the fit of the mask, the pressure coming out was just way too much.  So, last night I tried it.  It took me about an hour to fall asleep, but I finally did and slept for two hours.  I woke up and the mask was just so incredibly uncomfortable, I had to take it off.  I asked her yesterday about a nasal mask, but she said it was not ideal with my high pressure and I have to stick with a full face mask.  It's going to take a lot of getting used to, I really hate it.  I wish it were more comfortable, then I would have no issue sleeping with it.  As it stands, it's really hard.  I hope it gets better.